Change

I recently decided that I needed a change. I have struggled all my life with being overweight and always felt like it was battle I could never win. But after many years of shame and failed attempts I have come full circle. It is time, at last I am ready. It has taken a lot of healing and realization to get to this place. I needed to be healthy in my mind and in spirit before I was able to start my road to health with my physical body. Five weeks today and this change has seemed a natural progression in my journey. So far I have lost 17 lbs and I honestly believe that is just the start. I feel confident it is only the start. This is hard for me to say but I want to claim it. Fear still resides inside of me, waiting at ever corner watching for me to fail but I am determined and I have God and faith for this fear to reckon with. This subject It is not something I thought I would ever put out there in the blogosphere but I feel the need to be open with my struggle and my desire for change. One day at a time. Each day choosing to live differently - choosing to love this body the Lord has so graciously entrusted to me. Each day a little closer to where I want to be.